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Just sitting here

Sun, 04 Jun 2006 11:24:11 GMT

I'm just sitting around for Aaron and Eva to get here so we can hit the road. We're heading up to West Virginia to do somet White Water Rafting woohoo. But I'm too damn tired. I only got 3 hours of sleep last night but it was worth it. I'm gonna lay off the beer and booze for a bit so that it will make certain people happy. Ugh it's a long ass drive to be this tired but then again I've driven to Fl on two hours of sleep. But on the way back me and Eva are stopping by the Honda House on Broad to look at some motorcycles. Anywho, I'll update when I get back........I need a long ass vacation....

Cruise

Thu, 01 Jun 2006 16:13:10 GMT

I'm debating. I've been looking over brochures and such and I'm thinking about going on another cruise before the years end. Perhaps a longer one this time. Seven days atleast. I really enjoyed the carribean so that's what I'm gonna stick to for atleast my next cruise. Anyone wanna go with me? I'm paying haha. Well anyway. Work has been tourture this week because of the upgrade we had we've been doing an insane amount of work and I almost never get off on time, oh well the money is really good. Other than that Flight school is going awesome. I'm going for my Stage 1 check flight not next week but the week after. I'm the first student to have gotten to that point in less then 10 hours so kudos to me! I'm taking off flight school next week because I'm going to West Virginia with some friends for some White Water Rafting, I'm really looking forward to it. Only 3 more weeks and I'll be in the process of looking for a motorcycle. I decided on a cruiser, everyone else seemed to like the idea too. Anywho I'm done for now.

......

Sun, 28 May 2006 06:29:25 GMT

Things just keep getting better.

Tired

Fri, 26 May 2006 23:54:41 GMT

Despite being really tired and worn out for the last few days, I've been in the best mood I've been in for a while. I'm a happy guy!

Flight

Mon, 22 May 2006 22:44:03 GMT

Super excited! I'm on my 3rd Flight yet on lesson 5.....2 lessons ahead of the game. I'm starting to meet new people at the airport and becoming more of a regular. Hit up TCC and signed up for motorcycle classes that I'll take in about 4 weeks. The biggest question is whether to get a cruiser or to get a sport bike. HMMMMMM

Plate Full

Mon, 22 May 2006 15:33:18 GMT

Had an awesome weekend! Congrats to Candi, you finially did it! But now it's back to the grind. I have a maneveur(sp) tomorrow that scares the hell out of me. It's a stalled spin that basically puts me in to a spinning dive. But I sign up for motorcycle classes today. Hmmm though I had more to say but, oh well. I did however drop to 201, that's 17 pound lighter and still losing.

yup

Sat, 20 May 2006 15:20:15 GMT

6 1/2 - 2 - 4

Single Life

Fri, 19 May 2006 15:18:36 GMT

I think single life has been one of the best things to happen to me. I still yern for the affection but at the same time I've jumped so far in my life in this short amount of time. As you all know I've recently been working on my pilot's license, one of my dreams becoming a reality. I now have begun to look into two other dreams that will soon also become a reality. I'm going with some guys from work and get scuba certified and me and Eva are signing up for motorcycle classes on Monday. I've had so much free time to make shit happen. It's GREAT! So as I've said in previous entries......I'm gonna do everything in my life. I'm not gonna sit at home anymore, my weekends are not going to be the same thing. I'm here in this world to expierence life. That's what I'm going to do. Live it to the Fullest.

Scuba Diving

Thu, 18 May 2006 03:20:24 GMT

Hmmmm....so the guys want to get scuba diving certified.....Ok I'm in.

Life

Tue, 16 May 2006 04:50:52 GMT

I try
To be the man I am
In times of broken lives
And shattered dreams and plans
Standing up to fight
The pressures and demands
Staring at the knife
And holding in your hand
What used to be your life

This world is crazy
My dreams are fading
I want my life

You fight
Your fucked up holy wars
Fire anti-christ
Jesus will come down
And help us win tonight
Now how should I feel
I think I feel alright
So tell me where to aim
I'm blinded by the light

This world is crazy
My dreams are fading
No one can save me

I want my life

And when I wake up you'll be here
And it will be the way it was

So mad!

Tue, 16 May 2006 04:35:56 GMT

I'm so mad I can't see straight. I just found out my ex of only a month has a new boyfriend. And it's the guy I feared that would take her in the first place. I knew she would find someone else. But she sat me down, and said that she didn't want to exclusively date someone because it was too much stress on her. So what did I do, I trusted her. That's fine, perhaps we can be freinds or even back together down the road. But now after what I've learned I'm so fucking mad. She used me, she's a gold digger. She lied to my face. I did so much for her and what do I get? "I can't put my energy into a relationship right now." BULLSHIT! Like I said I'm not mad that she found someone else, I'm mad that she used me and she took total advantage of me. The fact that she let me take her on the cruise knowing she'd break up with me. Saying I love you then the next day saying she wanted to be just friends. I'd never hit a woman but God Damn it. Not only did she put a dagger through my heart but now she turned it making sure the wound would not close. I deserve better than this. I know I have my moments, but I'm a good guy. I'm not an idiot and everyone thinks I am. Well FUCK HER! I've been through so much in my life and I've achieved so much all by myself! I don't have parents to pay my rent and for my school. I don't have them give me money every 5 secs. I'm my own person! I'm 22 and I have alot to show for it. And I will further myself at all costs. I'm going to be a Great Man one day! Until then, leave me the fuck alone.

Bored

Sun, 14 May 2006 12:54:43 GMT

I'm bored with my life.

OVERTIME!

Sat, 13 May 2006 13:28:22 GMT

This shit really pissed me off. I've worked my ass off for the last few months, overtime almost ever week. I've been getting in to this flying stuff and I'm suppose to be starting regular trainin on monday. Well of course when everything is finally starting to go my way again........MANDATORY OVERTIME! I get an e-mail last night telling us that we are now on mandatory overtime and no matter what we are stuck working an additional day a week. ::sigh:: Always my luck! So now I'm forced to work on sundays cause i have flight training on the other days. And now I have to tell my grandparents I can't come up there to help with redoing the house cause I'm working. Man I'm getting so friggin burned out, I was lookin forward to takeing some time off and enjoing life for a bit. Well fuck that i suppose. My name is Cory, I don't get the luxary of enjoying life. And now everyone knows it. FUCK!

I want my obituary on the front page

Mon, 08 May 2006 03:38:34 GMT

Over the last few weeks I've had alot of time to reflect back on my short life. That's when I decided that I want to experience all that is out there. You only live once. I'm currently working on my pilot's license, I can check that off my list. In the next year will be followed by a motorcycle, skydiving certification, buying a house, perhaps i'll try scuba diving. But when I go I want a front page obituary. I don't want to be famous. I want to be known as the guy of high ambition that has done it all. I want to be that guy that never turned down anything. I want to be the guy where someone talks about me and says, "yeah, Cory did that." So from now on, I hold nothing back. If i want it, it'll happen. I love how Chris's mom put me, "he's a guy that when he wants it he goes for it. He's not a talker, he's a doer." And that is what i'm going to continue to be. I truely beleive that if there is anything out there that you want, and if you want it bad enough and work hard enough for it. You'll get it. That is what i intend to do! So one day, far from today, upon my death, look for my name on the Front Page.

Proud Parent

Fri, 05 May 2006 11:47:11 GMT

So I called my dad last night to tell him about the whole pilot thing. I think that is the first time he's ever said he was proud of me. So I'm a little wigged out about the whole thing cause that has never happened before. But I go in on monday and get my stuff for ground school. Tuesday I get my physical so they know i'm not going to drop dead while attempting to fly a plane. And on the following monday is when I get to start regualr weekly lessons. I know this is all I'm really typing about lately but this is huge to me. Put it this way, I'm not talking about work for once HAHA.

I'm gonna do my own thing!

Thu, 04 May 2006 13:09:09 GMT

I'm not listening, not anymore
The more I learn, the more I ignore
I'm not listening, not anymore
The more I hear, the more I ignore
I'm not listening, not anymore, No

Cause You gotta be bigger, be faster, be stronger
If your gonna survive any longer
In this lifetime, it better be the right time
The first time might be your last time
Am I a failure if I got nothing to lose
No, I'm not a failure, I got something to prove

I'm not listening, not anymore
The more I learn, the more I ignore
I'm not listening, not anymore
The more I hear, the more I ignore, the more I ignore

Cause I've lost my innocence
And I'm a stranger, A life changer
I'm a man thats not afraid of danger
I walk my own path, and blaze my own trail
Because I'm not afraid to derail
I won't get in line or be a middle man
So fuck you I'll make my own plan
And I got respect and I don't neglect
The people that I really care to protect
Am I a failure if I got nothing to lose
No, I'm not a failure, I got something to prove

I told you before, wont listen no more
I told you before, lets settle the score
I told you before, wont listen no more
I told you before, lets settle the score

If not me then who?
If not now then when?
If not me then who?
If not now then when?

I told you before, wont listen no more
I told you before, lets settle the score
I told you before, wont listen no more
I told you before, lets settle the score

Set it off right now
Blow it up, set it off
Fuck it up, set it off
Blow it up, Blow it up right now

~Papa Roach

WOOHOO

Wed, 03 May 2006 19:31:07 GMT

HA! who'd a thunk it! So more good news! Not only did I do awesome on my first lesson, but I got my student loan approved to continue my flight training and finish it in as little as about 3 months! ::static:: this is yer captain speaking, we are currently reached our cruising altitude ::static:: HAHA, Try and put me in a bad mood i'll kill ya LOL

Interesting but a let down.

Wed, 03 May 2006 10:20:14 GMT

So yeah last night my nerves are a lil fucked up. I'm super excited about my Flight lesson today butfor some reason I'm dreaming of other things. I hate that. Especialy when they are good and bad all mixed up. It's sad because alot of times my dreams are usually some kind of foresight depending on how I read them. In one of them, it was mid summer and I guess I was coming home from a late night out with the guys but I looked in my bed and Jocelyn was there..... She had driven down to surprise me and hoped to get back together. Of course in my dream we did. But nevertheless..just a dream. She doesn't even speak to me anymore. I've tried to contact her as a friend a few times with little or no response. Oh well story of my life. Well on to the next part of my dream Brandon's mom call me and said Shana's friend kelly had died in Oregon. So Kelly, DON'T GO TO OREGON. So there, the good and the bad. But with my luck these days the bad tends to have a better chance. Let's hope not.

FLIGHT SCHOOL

Tue, 02 May 2006 16:32:51 GMT

So yeah. Considering I don't have a girlfriend. I'm not putting my energy into getting my pilots license. My first lesson is tomorrow..at 6am. But It's all good I'm super excited! So I'm in a good ass mood. Not sure anything can kill it!

Had a GREAT WEEKEND!

Mon, 01 May 2006 11:53:34 GMT

Well my weekend started off shitty at work. They wanted to send me from Blackwater all the way out to Oceanview......45min DRIVE! That's from almost to North Carolina to the Hampton Roads BT. But anyway, after that came home, relaxed for about an hour then had a great night on the town. Jeremy and I (yay for proper grammer) got some dinner at Fridays where our drinking began. Then we headed out to Granby St. we more beer awaited us. Needless to say that was a good night. So on to yesterday. After debating in my sleep all night errr lack of sleep. I decide to roll out to Busch Gardens with a few friends. I think I started drinking around noon and didn't stop till we left whenever that was. AGAIN drunk as hell for the day and riding rollercoaster. I was only upset to find that the Beer School was closed ! The HELL!?!?! However, we head to a beer tasting with was awesome! All kinds of beer from around the world. So as of right now I write this I know I have to head back to work. Cause I'm a working fool. I'm good at drinking and workin it seams. But I'm pleased.

I'm leaving on a jet plane!

Fri, 28 Apr 2006 13:54:00 GMT

New Truck?! Are you crazy? your truck is fucking awesome!!! Take to the skies! - Drew

pilots license for sure. way cooler. besides you already have a truck! - Lauren

So after much considerations......I'm gonna go for my pilots license. Right now i've started to call around doing a little bit of research on the local flight school. To see who would fit in my schedule the best and be the biggest bang for the buck. I'm really looking forward to it. Well I'm home on break and now it's time to head back out to work......DUMMIT

With this Knife...

Fri, 28 Apr 2006 02:25:40 GMT

"With This Knife"

I let myself fall into a lie
I let my walls come down
I let myself smile and feel alive
I let my walls come down
No matter how i try i don't know why
You push so far away
You wrapped your hands tight around my heart
And squeezed it full of pain

With this knife i'll cut out the part of me
The part that cares for you
With this knife i'll cut out the heart of me
The heart that cares for you

I can't believe the way you took me down
I never saw the pain
Coming in a million broken miles
Like poison for my veins

The hate and the fear
The nightmares that wake me up
In tears
The nightmares and (the hate)...

-Smile Empty Soul

new truck....or pilot's license

Thu, 27 Apr 2006 03:12:44 GMT

Well earlier this evening I was struck with an idea. Do I want a new bigger truck....sure! But now I'm thinking, for about 7000 I could get my pilots license, how cool would that be! So right now I'm doing research on flight schools in my area and Richmond. I would love to do it, It's one of my dreams. So if anything I'll go up for a first flight and see if I'm as interested in it as I once was. Will keep you updated :-)

::sigh::

Wed, 26 Apr 2006 03:46:12 GMT

Well after going to several other dealerships I've decided i'm gonna have to wait for my dream truck. $550 a month, I could afford it but not comfortably. So if figure instead of making my usual compulsive buy i'm gonna wait it out and wait for a good deal. Other then that went to hooters with the guys and got hit on by the hooters chic haha SCORE! Oh, I also got a 333.00 bonus from work. SWEET! So I'm in a good mood for the most part, a little disappointed on the other part. But me and Jeremy are hitting up the bars this weekend after work, so I'm looking forward to it. I know I'm single and there nothing wrong with staying at home but i feel like i have to go out and do something on my free night. But until next time. LATERS

I'm not sure

Tue, 25 Apr 2006 02:58:35 GMT

Well I spend most of today going out and test driving trucks. I fell in love with one. Dodge 1500 quad cab, 20 inch rims! BEAUTIFUL! But at 550 a month. It's it worth it. I'm going to think about it. I can afford it but do I want to pay that for the next 5 years? AHHHH! We'll see.